This line comes from Grey’s Anatomy, that I enjoyed watching when I was in The Netherlands. But not in French… and unfortunately here in France everything is dubbed!
I had a bad night and woke up all shaky and I could not stop crying for a while. Although really I wanted to, as I hate for people (my kids for that matter) to see me like that. And I had to think about my own support group, who’s my person? Who can I count on when I am feeling down, to cheer me up?
And as I was thinking about my close friends, what hit me was that I did not want to ask for help. I could clearly hear my limiting beliefs about that, such as: You can’t complain, complaining is bad, I don’t want people to see me like that, I don’t want to bother them with my issues…
So what did I do? I set my intention for today to accept my sadness and to use it positively. As feeling the pain is what – unfortunately – brings us the most learning, and I am still clearly determined to learn and grow a lot more, and to continuously work on my mindset. I cheered up a bit after the emails coming in from my friends who had just received my Monday’s mail and the text messages I received this morning. I admitted to my friends I was not feeling very well today, and I accepted a cup of tea from a dear friend.
So that makes me realize too I have still a lot of work to do in order to be able to ask for help when I need it. Like many (I guess), I wish people would just pick up on my vibes and cheer me up without me asking J. And yes, I know, I am advising you to ask for help when you need. We always say that you teach what you need to learn and I am once again the perfect example of that! And I accept my perfect imperfection and my need and I want to grow into a better version of myself!
This also gives me confirmation that what I am planning to set up soon, that is regular Women’s Circles, is a good idea. It is something I feel I need and I feel I am not alone. I wish for a community of women, I wish for a place to share and to heal our wounds, for a place to help each other, understand, be compassionate of each other’s stories, wounds and paths. A place to let yourself go, shout and cry if necessary, dance and sing if you want to, a place where all is allowed and we all support each other.
But for now, what I want to leave you with is the following:
- We are a work in progress, and as long as there is progress to make, it means we are alive!
- It’s ok to feel bad, it is also simply life happening, and we should not push it away, but recognize what it is about and see how we can use it to grow further
- Even if it feels difficult to ask, our family and friends are there for us as we are there for them, so we should swallow our pride and ask for their help.
So, who is your person? Who are your people? Let them know you love them and you are there for them!
I wish you a wonderful week!